forgot to say tat I FINALLI GOT THE JOB! hee.. at taka.. they called me right on tat day tat i went for interview.. just a salesperson post.. nutting great to most of u but im realli happi to get a job le.. after days of disappointment.. hehe.. i hope i can make lots of frens and haf lots of fun working while gaining some experience.. i noe its weird for a diploma holder to get such a job but i dun want my hols to be stress out.. i want a more no brain and relaxing job.. hehe.. btw, dun even noe if i can get in the unis anot.. but i realli wanna get a degree first.. so see how bah..
to say the truth.. actualli im still lost abt the future.. i realli want find a course tat i realli like and haf passion in.. tat goes for the job after tat.. but its realli hard to choose when im at a point where there are just too mani routes to go.. and my mind is so unsettled.. i wish i can be more firm and decisive.. not a fickle minded dumb dumb.. i realli want to be a person who realli noe wat i realli want in life or in anithing else.. but its hard.. most of my frens i ask.. y did u choose tat course?? most will say either cos they dun like other courses and this is the oni course which they sort of can make do with it or just follow wat they study in poly or its just a degree to get other jobs in future maybe or cos this course offer other opportunities in future.. nobody answered me b4 " I LIKE IT".. tats the sentence tat i realli wish to hear from myself.. my lecturer is the oni person whom can realli tell me this firmly.. he is a person who realli noe wat he wants and is firm abt the things he does.. and is so passionate abt the things he does.. i realli aim to be like him.. wat he says and do realli inspired me to realli find out where my passion lies and my future direction.. but for now.. im just a fickle minded ger with no true direction and dreams and ambition and passion.. haizz.. not emo kz.. just tat i wish i can noe wat i realli want.. i noe tat some pple maybe until 40s 50s also dunno wat they realli want.. but i dun wish to be lidat.. i wish to face life and the future with a direction and passion.. so tat everyday is a realli well spent day.. so WAT U REALLI WANT IN LIFE? WATS UR TRUE PASSION?? maybe we shud start asking ourselves now and gif it more thoughts..
on the other hand.. life is not oni abt work and passion.. theres still family and frenz to cherish and spend time with.. tats wat im trying to do now.. as i realli feel tat i neglected them during my poly due to poor time management and real busy stressful skool life.. tats y my msn nick once was 人到了最后， 花了一生追求的名利地位会不会只是一场空？而忽略的感情和身边重要的人是代价， 值得吗? so i realli tink i lost alot bah.. so must realli cherish now..
